First Post?

Allow me to introduce myself.  I'm Amanda, a 29 year old woman living in North Georgia.  I am married to the man God chose for me, and I have 3 children (so far ;).  This is not to lead you into thinking I am one of "those" women who is trying to have a million kids, but I am a realist.  My mother had 8 kids, and her mother had 10 kids.  Oh, yeah.  And we aren't exactly not trying, either. 

I'm pretty sure I'm the luckiest, most blessed woman on the planet.  My husband is sort of perfect (except when he's not) and my kids are awesome (except when they're not).  I love my life.  This might sound cheesy but I go running and I look up at the sky and literally praise God and thank Him for this day, these gifts, this life. 

This wasn't always the case.  A few years ago I was different.  Vastly.  I did not appreciate anything.  I was pessimistic.  I did not love my husband and threatened to divorce him often.  I drank and smoked a lot. I only cared about myself. I yelled and got road rage and cursed God and I was stressed out.  I want to say I hid my pain by going out drinking and dancing and having a good time, but honestly, I didn't realize there was even a problem with the way I was living.  This blog is going to recall that life and this life, and the transition between the old self and the new.The in-betweens, the a-ha moments, and the OMGs.